I had no idea it would be this hard. No idea I would feel so alone.
People never talk of the aching and breaking of obedience.
Sometimes the aftertaste doesn’t seem worth the sweetness of the fruit.
Re-entry is painful.
How do I live in this state of change.
My world seems shaky.
Where is home, what is comfort, how is normal meant to feel.
Am I doing this right?
Stepping out in faith was hard but in the moment your grace seemed to give me wings.
Now I’m struggling to keep from sinking into the pit of dispair, questions, fear.
Jesus, hold me, teach me, help me to do this next stage.
Give me hope, joy and peace.
Just as you gave me strength in stepping out, give me strength in the coming home.