Rachel Hamilton

Author | Writer | Traveler | Child of God | Kiwi Girl

I’ve Been Changed. I’ve Seen Hope.

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Two weeks since I arrived home and it’s finally hit me, a painful reality that I’m no longer in Uganda. I’ve pushed the feelings away, with everything being a whirlwind of activity it’s been easy,  jetlag, three days in Australia then jumping on a plane and coming to New Zealand, scraping wallpaper, painting, falling into bed each evening so tired and achy from the physical work. I don’t want to face theses feelings or look back, but process I must. 

Uganda my third home, how I adore and love you, its strange to think the first month I would have given anything to jump on a plane and fly home. 

It was Christmas time and I missed my family greatly. I felt like a huge failure as a volunteer and questioned my purpose for being at Baby Watoto. 

But as the days turned to weeks and a month past I began to adjust, adapt and see how Watoto and Uganda was deeply impacting me. With each country I visit it contuines to amaze me that I arrive with the goal to change lives yet everytime I am the one left changed. 

Each situation was an opportunity for growth, insight, healing and restoration in not just the lives around me but my life too. 

My other mission trips I have been on, I have come back feeling broken by the injustice, sin, sorrow and sadness of the world. Broken by the things I have seen. 

Memories of the woman who looked at me with deep pain in her eyes in the red light district trapped in a life of slavery and pain in Thailand, the little boy who asked me to be his mother in the ophange in Sri Lanka.

But this time something beautiful has happened, I have come back, healed, filled with joy by the things God is doing and the joy that there IS something I can do to make a difference.

I’ve seen hope, in the laughing eyes of a happy healthy baby at Baby Watoto, in the new school where 100s of Children can now safely study year round. 

Uganda and Watoto has shown me I want to devote my life to something bigger than myself, I want to use what I have to make the world a better place and it’s possible. We can do it. 

Hurt is everywhere, need is everywhere but we can be the change. I don’t just  have to be in Uganda to make a difference, I just have to have open eyes and hands ready and willing to help those around me. 

So dear Watoto staff, nannies, volunteers, babies, Ugandan friends. Thank you all so much for what you have taught and shown me, thank you for the love, kindness, healing, hope and joy you have brought into my life. For the way you show me anything is possible if we devote our lives to Christ and be his hands and feet to those around us. 

All I want to do is get back on a plane and come back  but for now I will take the knowledge and lessons I’ve learnt and aim to make a difference where I stand right now. 

But I will be back dear Uganda. I will be back. 

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One thought on “I’ve Been Changed. I’ve Seen Hope.

  1. Wow! What a beautiful perspective and outlook on life. I’m so happy you got the opportunity to spend 3 months in Africa. It never ceases to amaze me how, when we go somewhere expecting to help the hurting or broken, we end up being blessed by them instead. Funny how that works. Love you, Rach! You’re amazing!

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